Finding Joy in Doing

Hey, All! Thank you for taking time to read this post. This past week has been amazing and overwhelming, but I know that the Lord is good. Here's a small recap of things that have been happening for me.

First thing's first, I published my pattern on Ravelry finally! But, unfortunately, PayPal has not been very cooperative with me. I am thankful for the kind of program PayPal is, but right now, even if people were to buy my pattern, there's no way for me to receive that money, as it stands. I was informed that PayPal needed more information on my account, information that I thought I already provided for them. I know this is sounding a lot like a rant, but I can't describe how frustrated I am. And this is something that needs to get figured out. Prayers are totally appreciated! Pray for patience and grace as this issue gets resolved.

Second, I finished one of my October projects on Sunday! I've learned a valuable lesson, and that is to never block more than one project at a time. The colors didn't bleed through for me, luckily, but I ended up not having enough space on my blocking mats for the projects I had blocked. My FO is the Bistro of the "Bistro and Cucina Dish Towels" for a couple of friends of mine getting married in December. I really like the patterns and I may end up making some for our home.

Of course the ends aren't woven in yet, but I'm so excited to give these towels to my friends!

Also, one last thing, I'm crocheting flowers right now. I have an idea planned, I can't go into the details, but it's something unique, something I haven't seen (doesn't mean it doesn't exist) and something fun! I've crocheted two flowers so far, but I do have a lot more to go! Good thing I have a lot of scrap yarn!

I can't to share more with you all!

On another note, yesterday was pretty rough. I felt discouraged. Lately, I've been thinking "Andrea Mowry and Stephen West became successful just by publishing their first pattern. Why can't that be me?" I started feeling really jealous of the two of them. I absolutely love their work, and I wish that could be me. But it's not. And I'm learning to be more okay with it. God has this journey laid out in a unique way, unique to me. It's okay for me to not be crazy successful my first try. I still have faith that God is going to bless this business, I just don't know when or how.

But today has been different. Even if PayPal is making me so frustrated I could cry, I still have joy in my heart. I have joy knowing that I get to do knitting for a living, that I get to do what I love. My heart feels overwhelmed with joy being able to pursue my passion. Even if it's hard and frustrating at times, God is still in control and He has authority over my career as a freelancer. I can't wait to see what more He does!

Thank you for reading this blog! I usually try to blog every Monday but because I was so worn out yesterday, I just felt no desire to write. Until next time!

Amanda Wells

FAWM Knits Designer

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